Lavinia keeps asking how I’m feeling. As usual I am far more affected by the sadness I see in the eyes of those who hear of my situation. While the symptoms are temporally relieved and I have no pain, it is easy for me personally to simply “enjoy” the new challenge. The absence of life is not a fear for me, but the loss of love touches to the very heart of our existence. We have all loved in some way and are therefore vulnerable to grief, but that very grief can only be acknowledgement of what has been, a celebration.
I feel incredible gratitude for my life, I have been lucky in so many ways. And now I am amazed to find how people care about me. I am not interested in sympathy which pities, it holds no comfort. However, I have found that Love is emboldening.
Good Grief!!